Saruwatari LOVE>>33

2010-06-02T14:47:00.000-07:00

i want every little pieces of each of them.

Taufik's eyebrow plus his eyes plus goatie,

Afghan's dimples,

Pasha's jaw,

Tim's hair.

all into one. can?

please.:)

hahahaha!

2010-05-15T02:22:00.000-07:00

nothing interesting to talk about.
school & work.
the priority for now.:)

i felt contented with what i have.
that's for now.:)

2010-04-23T03:14:00.000-07:00

i got my heart broken again
:(

i am sorry heart.
i know i promise you that i wont break your heart but i did it once again.
:(

2010-04-23T02:41:00.000-07:00

susah ah nak faham kau nowdays.
seriously.
aku dissappointed gile dengan kau.

i don't wish things to turn out this way either.
but you're making it worse.
don't you think so?
dah ah, malas nak bbual pasal kau.
waste time aku je.

2010-04-22T03:01:00.000-07:00

i want a soulmate/husband who can bake.
so he can bake for me macaroon, fruit tart, cream puff & etc when i feel like having it.
he will be my sweetest cupcake.

2010-04-14T19:45:00.000-07:00

i know i shouldn't expect much from you
:)
after all,
absence make the heart grows fonder.
i miss you like a child miss his blanket.

2010-04-12T00:00:00.000-07:00

i don't know why but something is troubling me.

i don't know how long i am able to take this pain.
keep failing in......

one after another.

but i hope everything gonna be fine soon as long i keep myself busy.
its the only first day of school and i am feeling lethargic.
seriously.

H gave us a ride home & treat us dinner at Simpang.

seriously, i think i have something for older guys.
i mean certain older guys.:)

2010-04-02T00:50:00.000-07:00

deeply, i miss this little cutie pies.
i miss cuddling them.

and yes,
i miss you too.:)

2010-03-30T01:15:00.000-07:00

someday i would love to sing,
lucky I'm love with my best friend.
:)

2010-03-29T02:24:00.000-07:00

we're enjoying each other company.
believe it or not,
i never expected things to be this way.
<3

2010-03-16T02:41:00.000-07:00

leading a good/bad life now.
i already got myself a sister-in-law.
and i wish to become an aunty anytime sooner.

not forgetting i want a brother-in-law too.
so sister, faster get hitch.

as for myself,
have yet to become a girlfriend to a boyfriend.

but indeed i got myself another great/best friend.
H, thanks for everything.
thanks for tolerating my nonsense,
thanks for the advises,
thanks for the motivations,
thanks for the listening ears
&
thanks for always being there for me when i needed you most.
now, i own you big time.;)
let's meet up soon and have Teh Tarik Bubble Mau Lebih again.:):)

2010-02-06T01:36:00.000-08:00

work was super duper tiring today but we managed to pull through.
something unexpected happened today.
yes. something that i used to be wishing it to happen.

the clock strike 10.45pm when the bus came.
it was a double deck bus.
walking towards the back of the bus looking for a place to sit.
suddenly, our eyes met.
yes. met for just a second.
i took a sit and i knew its him.
we're 1 sit apart.
i couldn't think much cos i was busy turning on my MP3 player.
yes, we're like stranger.complete stranger.
that's when my heart aches.
how could you?
not a single smile.

when i got down,
i noticed you took a glance.
yes, don't denied it.

faan,
i knew its you.
how could i not remember the person who cook maggie mee for me at Mount Ophir.

2010-01-26T00:41:00.000-08:00

thanks for all the well-wishes people.
thanks to family for the powder bath yesterday.
thanks Aisyah & Doda for the cute little cakes.
thanks Nadia & Alimah for the cute flower brooch.

and lastly,
thanks dearest lovely girlfriends for the birthday surprised.
i am totally touched.
i love you guys so much.
Muacccckkkksssssssss.<3

2010-01-23T01:30:00.000-08:00

another long day tomorrow.
seriously, i am not looking forward to Monday.

2010-01-19T21:34:00.000-08:00

some things are better left unsaid.
let me keep it to myself and ponder it.

2010-01-18T00:00:00.000-08:00

8 more days to go,
i ain't excited about being nineteen at all.
because i know, i am left with a year to enjoy being a teenager.
people might say, age is just a number.
but don't you think as you get older you have much more responsibilities?
yes, i am feeling it already.

i wish for nothing much.
i wish mum and dad stays healthy life ahead.
i wish brother a blissful marriages with his love of his life.
and i wish sister could find someone who can lead her to the right path.

as for me,
i wish i could be a better friend, sister, daughter and a better Muslim.
Insyallah.

someone told me this,
whatever you do, you mustn't stop thinking about Rasulullah SAW.
yes, i am trying my best.

2010-01-11T00:31:00.000-08:00

after 4 months of preparations,
i am finally done.
thank god everything went on smoothly even though there's hiccups here and there.
thanks everyone for making it a success.
thanks to YOU for listening to my whining and complaints the night before the event plus on the night after the event end. what's more can i asked for.
thanks for being there for me.:)

good job to Nadia, Edwin, Aisah and myself.
we made it at last.:)

January orientation camp after this and i am done.
yes, i need to start concentrating on my studies already.

2010-01-02T02:40:00.000-08:00

what's more i could ask for
I have them.
i love you Nabilah
i love you Diyana
i love you Hadainah
i love you Amira
xoxo:)

girls, we need another new group photo together i guess.
don't you think so?

2010-01-02T02:30:00.000-08:00

2010,
i am so gonna start focusing on my studies.
start thinking about my future.
hoping for a great year with family and friends.

i am starting a fresh new year without having to wait anymore.
yes, finally kan sharifah.:)
i don't know why, but i am proud of myself because i managed to let it go only after 4 fcking years.

nothing much to talk about cos,
Alhamdullillah,
i feel contented with what i have now.

2009-12-30T01:15:00.000-08:00

Goodbye 2009, Hello 2010

i am starting a fresh new year.
yes, i am so looking forward to 2010.

finally,
i let fate decide.:)

2009-12-12T21:30:00.000-08:00

my life is tooooooooooo boring.
i got nothing to update except,
i am now busy with work and D&D preparation.

i went over to Suntec to meet Ros just now.
she went off with his boyfriend,
and i took 518 back home.
i went out at 1.30pm and back home around 5pm.
how boring can that be.:(

2009-12-08T02:22:00.000-08:00

Muhammad Farhan Bin Jumiat.
Happy 20th Birthday Faan. :)

2009-11-26T00:27:00.000-08:00

everything went fine since the past few days.
although there's hiccups here and there.
but i managed to overcome it though. :)

i took out my most important weapon .
time management.yes.:)
student councilor, school test, school project plus & work
MPC project is taking hell lots of my time.
due date in a week time. :(

its already holiday for cold basic dessert and service qualities module.
meet you guys again in January.
school not officially ended as we still have to attend Maam Veron lesson.

i am starting club training soon as November ends.

work have been great.
but yet still, i am the only lady out there.
so be it in the service side nor kitchen.
great people around, great chefs around. totally awesome.
been working real hard this days.
i can't afford to fool around anymore.
i've to start thinking about future.
this is what i want, so i need to push myself.

next term will be a fresh new term again.
still the old module but we're starting to run Amber restaurant.
i am excited but still got butterfly in the stomach.:)

good luck to whoever who gonna sit for their exam next week.
study hard people.
strive high.:)

with love, S

2009-11-18T18:08:00.000-08:00

i was given 2 days medical leave.
i was down with a very bad ear/skin infection due to my bad sore throat.
i am still undergoing medication.
thanks to mum & dad for taking good care of me for the past two days.:)
i love you both.

i think i got a lot to catch up since i will be back to school tomorrow.
yes, dear mates are enjoying themselves at Kallang cage playing futsal.
i am jealous because i would love to join them.
next week we go again alright?

i got a lot of things to be done.
yet i always failed to fulfill it.
sorry to whoever who may concerned.

i don't know why suddenly i felt this way.
i miss F. :(:(

2009-11-15T00:11:00.000-08:00

life is ........
i am starting my new job tomorrow.
i finally made up my mind on coach offer.
i accepted coach offer on joining coach's hockey club.
starting by the end of December. :)
maybe taking up 2 position.
thanks coach for having faith on me.

i miss having to spent my weekends with girlfriends.
i miss having to sit and enjoy the breeze at Esplanade waterfront with girlfriends.
i miss my dearest lovely girlfriends.

brother asked me this the other day,
"are you able to commit and manage your time properly?"
school, work, SC, hockey?

i went speechless.
because i know, brother is damn worry.
i don't wish to burden anyone.
especially mum & dad.

don't try to ever wonder what type of life i'm living in.
no one will understand.

2009-11-07T00:50:00.000-08:00

i finally met my girls yesterday.
school,family,relationship,marriages,pregnancy were some of the topics we discussed on.
after all, i need more sharing session because i still can't get enough of it especially having to spent time with lovely girlfriends.

girlfriends, ilyasm :)

2009-11-02T20:31:00.000-08:00

working for the Barclays Singapore Open was simply awesome
5am to 5pm routine
i was at the eggs station for 3 days straight when breakfast was served.
yes, i was given the title omelet girl.
cooked different types of eggs for the guest on the spot.
live action station.

and for two days, i bumped into Adam Scott.
cooked for him scrambled eggs for the two days.
i put my heart and soul to it. haha.
he looks much more better in person. *grins*

i was the bullied victim for 3 days straight.
always kena bully one.

i skipped school today. :(
lack of fiber = constipation.

A, those 3 three words are better left unsaid.
sorry. :(

2009-10-30T01:28:00.000-07:00

currently busy with school and i will give a proper update soon.
gotta make my way to Sentosa in 3hrs time.
Barclays Singapore Open.:)

2009-10-22T00:10:00.000-07:00

school ends at 11.30am instead of 2.30pm
i went over to SC room for a short meeting.
coincidentally, dearest dj end school at 12pm.
so, i asked dj to wait for me till the meeting ends.
sorry babe, i was late.
we did catch up with each other a little bit together with lovely b, Aini. :)

met Nabilah sayang at Tampines for lunch at the new Popeye's outlet.
isn't that great as we normally travel to Changi Airport just to eat Popeye's.
but the taste is way different from normal Popeye's
dj said maybe its an imitation shop. basket sia!
catch up with each other a little bit longer this time before headed back home.
what a waste cos other girlfriends couldn't make it. oh, i miss them :(

and gfs is planning to go to Night Safari on Halloween!
alah!!!!
yeah, all of them will be going except me. :(
i cannot go because of the Barclays thingy.:(

nak skip one day boleh tak chicher? *please*

2009-10-18T22:40:00.000-07:00

been busy with some stuffs since school re-opens.
i had a very long day yesterday.
student councilors pledge practice from 9am-2pm.
but i went off early as i was involve in the International chefs day at Mandai orchid garden.
nice place i can say.
i had great fun even though people love to bully me.
there's Kit Kat stealer. i hate them. lols.
the goodie bag was simply awesome.
but still i want my Kit Kat back. :(
i took 168 back from Woodlands and i wanted to take a short nap but
the bloody bus driver drives like a mad bull.grrrrr.
home sweet home around 11am+.that's the whole bison without the head.lols.the great companion through out the whole afternoon and night.:)
and the bully victim :(

2009-10-10T21:00:00.000-07:00

school re-opens in less than 2 days.
same old routine,
a morning stroll to Simei MRT and straight to Clementi.
checkered pants and maroon polo t-shirt.
i got to start mugging again.
i know, its not gonna be an easy new term.
new module, new CA and thank god, still the old mates.
i got to study even harder also.
GPA 3.2 last term and i hope to get a better grades this coming semester.
insyallah.

i am well-prepared for school and looking forward to a fresh new term.:)

2009-10-09T03:01:00.000-07:00

its 2.42am.
i still remember donkey years ago at this hour i usually spent my night/morning on Msn with F.
i miss that moment ever since F blocked me from MSN for only god knows why.
biar orang buat kite, jangan kiter buat orang. betul tak?
i guessed time has change.
i don't miss you that much now/this days.

No, don't ever say i've move on.
i am still struggling.

waiting needs extreme patience.
and most importantly you have to face whatever consequences that might occur if this thing didn't work.
that's what i am scared of. seriously.

2009-10-08T01:28:00.000-07:00

this guy up here has gone to serve the nation this morning.
and i never get to bid him goodbye.
and it was sad, it was sad
it was sad when the big ship goes down to the bottom and the husband and wife and children lost their life.
okay, mepek.
but yeah,
he will be gone for another 2yrs. pardon that.
like what D'masiv said,
Jangan Menyerah!

2009-10-07T17:26:00.000-07:00

4th Oct was a blast!
i was the victim of the day.
thanks to those who were responsible for all this.
i took last train home and the train was delayed due to some mechanical problems. argh!
i was already half dead.
home sweet home at 1am.

5th Oct was another awesome day.
Hussain was the driver of the day.
we were late. i mean super late.
bangun lambat lagik!:)lols.

Hussain was a bad/good driver.
we almost got into an accident on our way to khai's crib.
tell you what, if i were given a chance to slap Hussain I will make use of the opportunity because Hussain don't have any patience when comes to driving.
and hell yeah,
Hussain got into trouble.
a piece of white paper on the wind screen.
lol!

and, and, and not forgetting
we had few games of Daytona at E-hub arcade while waiting for Khai to end his meeting.
thanks lovebirds(Fira & Hefni) for the treat.
ni orang cakap style. pakai baju kurung tapi main arcade and trust me, there were lots of eyes on us.lols!
malu tak malu, yg penting kite happy!
betul tak? haha

home sweet home around 12am.:)
dad and mum must be proud of me because I was 1hr early back home.lols!

i didn't managed to snap any pics because i was too lazy and the rest of pictures were with Hefni. sent it to me okay!.

2009-10-02T21:17:00.000-07:00

i went to Rasa Sentosa yesterday for a short interview.
and due to that, i was late to meet girlfriends for jalan raya.
but i had great fun though.
every precious time with them means a lot to me whenever i am with girlfriends.
that's why when i went through Excos nomination interview the other day i did talk a little bit about them because they somehow plays apart in my life.

girlfriends, ilysm. :)

and i bet when i am writing this, girlfriends are having precious time together without me.
i wasn't in a good terms with mum.
that's why brother insisted that i stay at home for the time being.
but,
keluar rumah kene marah, tak keluar pun kene marah. then how?:(

2009-09-28T00:19:00.000-07:00

3 hrs of sleep for three days in a row,
my whole body is aching.
i can't even stand on my feet now.
thanks to the imitation safety shoes. *angry face*
but after all, its a great experience.

from Backstreet boys, Bobby chinn, Mr Lee Hsien Long, Mr Vivian, Datuk Mahathir Muhammad.
its nice to have a glance at them.:)

i gave blaze camp a miss.
sorry friends.:(

2009-09-25T01:20:00.000-07:00

Arnold Schwarzenegger said " I'll be back "
lol.

2009-09-24T01:58:00.000-07:00

from today onwards i will be super busy.
let me note all the dates down for reference.

24th Sept 2009- briefing regarding F1 at Shangri La
25th Sept 2009- involving in Formula 1
26th Sept 2009- involving in Formula 1
27th Sept 2009- involving in Formula 1
28th Sept 2009- Blaze camp
29th Sept 2009- Blaze camp
30th Sept 2009- Blaze camp
1st Oct 2009- Blaze camp
2nd Oct 2009- interview regarding the World Golf Championship( helping out)
3rd October 2009- SC Room Revamp + chapter meeting
4rd October 2009- Raya outing with SC

sigh;(

2009-09-18T01:38:00.000-07:00

saya mandi hujan tadi dan jatuh sakit.
dan saya dapat hadiah dari ayah.
satu sekel-lan di kepala.
terima kasih ayah.
sesungguhnya inilah hadiah yang paling bermakna yang pernah saya dapat selama 18 tahun saya hidup di dunia ini.

it been a very long time since i share about you to people
today, i did that.:(
f to a to a to n, aku rindu kau.:(

2009-09-18T00:03:00.000-07:00

in the process of recovery.
Alhamdullilah.:)

2009-09-16T22:20:00.000-07:00

i can't do anymore thinking.
maybe, i should stop.

yes people,
i am still unwell.
still the same. :( :( :( :(

2009-09-16T00:43:00.000-07:00

i felt bad for everything that happened.
i couldn't join my D&D committee for meeting later on.
i couldn't my class break-fast session also.
i felt bad for everything.

seriously its never gotten better.
i am struggling for oxygen.
my throat is burning.
and my arse is in great pain.
don't laugh people. i had a frequent visit to toilet now and then.
i don't know whats wrong.

i been panting since the last few days.
i am not tired but i am breathless.

i have yet to do the power point slides for this Friday interview.:(

i don't know if i am able to talk also cos i sound like a frog now.

2009-09-15T00:54:00.000-07:00

i thought i could woke up in much more better situation.
but its gotten even worst.
whenever i cough, i could felt that my lungs wobbled.
i lost my appetite.
whenever i ate, in less than 10mins i will flushed everything down the toilet bowl.

Raya is less than a week.
and i got to work on Thursday and Friday.
how bad can that be.
and i hope, my cough and diarrhea will subsidize soon.

2009-09-14T01:16:00.000-07:00

10 September, 2009

was well spent with lovely girlfriends
East Coast Lagoon for dinner.
Geylang was the next destination and lastly,
central Macd meeting some old friend.
home sweet home around 12am+

11 September,2009

Zoom Ramadhan!
break-fast with ITE West Clementi Student Councilor.
Amazing raze was Awesomeeee
singing in front of the crowd in the middle of Geylang was hell a lot of fun even though i find it quite embarrassing.LOLs.
my team won and we got 'duit raya' in advance. thanks!
home sweet home @ 11am+

12 September, 2009
went across causeway.
trust me, i was already 'dead' after the amazing race the day before.
home sweet home @ 12am+ again!
sister went futsal at east coast cage around 1am+ and i am jealous because i would love to join her but dad didn't allow me to go. :(

13 September, 2009
i was down with a bad sore throat, cough and a damn bad diarrhea.
still i insisted on doing spring cleaning to my room + brother room + kitchen.
and it has yet to be completed.

i also decided to cook for break-fast for the family.
Hainanese chicken rice with bbq chicken.
chicken soup and chap chye vegetables.
~yummy.
and thanks dad for the compliment even though he said,
pandai anak ayah masak, tapi kalau ayah masak confirm lagik sedap. haha.

and as for today 14 September, 2009
mum asked me to spring clean the living room + her room + wash the fanssss and lots more in the list.
mum is the most beruntung lady to have me as her daughter. lol. *kening naik-naik*
mum also said, " kau dah boleh kahwin dah.

*dalam hati*,
kalau boleh nak, tapi takder org masuk meminang. LOLS!

2009-09-10T14:25:00.000-07:00

exams officially over.
i just hope that i won't have to repeat those module again next year.
you get what i mean? haha.

CG bid goodbye to our CA, Mr Leong.
he's leaving us. :)
you know, i hate goodbyes.

i am meeting the girls in less than 2hrs. :);)

yesterday, i told dad about my intention of taking bike license.
in fact, i try to convince him that " ayah, bukan naik motor je boleh mati, kalau ajal dah sampai, bile-bile boleh mati. orang naik public transport pun bleh mati.

i thought he was convinced but then,
instead of answering yes or no,
he started his grandmother stories.
blah,blah,blah.
i think it lasted for 15mins.

still, he's not answering.
at last he asked me.
" bile kau yer next driving test?"
i tell you,my dad is good at changing topic.

dalam hati, nampaknya aku naik motor dalam mimpi je lah eh.

2009-09-09T21:52:00.000-07:00

people are enjoying now.
i got one more paper to go
and its main course preparation.
a lot to study. i don't know how to start.
today's paper was ;)
i love it yet i did some stupid mistakes.

meeting girlfriends tomorrow. :););)

sister talked about marriage just now.
to my amusement,
she WANTS arranged marriage.

2009-09-08T17:45:00.000-07:00

whenever my phone rang,
i wish it was you on the other line.
yes, i am still waiting.
i don't know how long its gonna last

someone asked me out this Thursday:)
but i think i shouldn't disappoint girlfriends this time round.
Thursday tetap jadi okay!

2009-09-08T14:45:00.000-07:00

i flunked today's paper.
trust me, i never expected things to turn out this way.
its beyond my imagination.
2 more paper to go, and i am done.

should i or shouldn't i?

2009-09-06T22:19:00.000-07:00

i had a conversation with sister just now about school.
i don't know why,
but i think she can be someone nice to talk to although we always quarrel.

elder brother treated us to Madjack for break-fast.
after the nice dinner,
all of us headed to Changi Beach for a walk.

exam starts tomorrow.
i wish i could at least skip IKP paper because its tremendously killing me now.

2009-08-31T23:10:00.000-07:00

sometimes i felt that its better to start a family
and be a full time housewife.

ps: oh mama, saya mahu kahwin. kahwin dengan siapa? dengan anak raja!

2009-08-31T22:12:00.000-07:00

school have been quite tiring for me.
but i had fun.
thanks to fellow student councilors. :)

mum is acting cold towards me.
and due to that,
i canceled my dinner date with girlfriends today.
sorry lovely girls.
i miss you all. :(

2009-08-27T14:15:00.000-07:00

been busy with school and some other stuff.
i definitely flunked my IKP paper.
4 module for this coming exams,
i got less than 2weeks to study.

i can never asked for more,
i only need my girls. :(

2009-08-24T00:42:00.000-07:00

too much things to share.
yet too little time.
my time now days is limited.

installation was a success.
cheers to the January intake:)
and the food was absolutely appetizing.
thanks to the culinary guys. :)

shukor is being an ass that day.
never fail to leave me alone for just 5mins.
he disturbed me till i felt like giving him a punch on his face.
and the rest joined in too.
i was a total "bahan" that day
but yeah, we enjoyed ourselves. right guys?
congratulation to all. :)

i worked on the first day of fasting.
i managed to break-fast only at 12am. :(

i went over to Tiong Bahru just now.
had sort of meeting with Edwin and Aisah regarding the D&D proposal
sadly, Nadia couldn't make it.
i hope you're fine babe.

in conclusion, i had an awesome day with them.

2009-08-19T21:44:00.000-07:00

i am done with my practical phase test.
3 theory paper down and i am left with 2 more papers.
i sprained my shoulder yesterday.
due to that, i was the last person to complete my phase exam just now.
i got confronted but Mr Leong because he said i was way to slow. :(
and i burned my finger again.
i got confronted again because Mr Leong said i was a hopeless person. :(
what's wrong with me?

i dreamed of F yesterday.
and today, i pass by the bus stop when we first met. :(
11 December 2006 @ 7.10am

2009-08-17T22:56:00.000-07:00

i decided to delete the previous post.

duduk dalam dunia jangan asyik nak mengutuk orang.
maybe, you should reflect on yourself too.

sorry, i sound harsh here.
but, i do believed that no one is perfect.

semua orang ada kekurangan masing-masing.
dan pada setiap kekurangan itu ada keunikkannya sendiri.

its up to an individual to accept it or not.
but for me, i accept it with an open arms and open mind because it comes from ALLAH and Rasulullah SAW. Allahuakbar!

2009-08-14T23:28:00.000-07:00

its the right time to take out my secret weapon.
the time management tool.
currently busy with school stuff.
test and exam is coming up.
i got a total of 6 test
2 of it is my phase test on main course preparation and others will be theory.
4 module in total.
exams in less than a month.
SC pledge practice will end soon but still,
investiture is coming up so my Saturday is occupy with pledge practice at ITE Bukit Batok
i requested to Louis my manager that i couldn't work this whole week. ;(

I've yet to study for my test on this coming Tuesday and Wednesday.
i got less than 6 hours to enjoy my sleep as i got to attend pledge practice tomorrow at 9am at Bukit Batok.

i think i am falling ill soon.:(
i need you as my medication. can?

2009-08-12T00:04:00.000-07:00

dad bought me 2 packet of Oreo because i washed the toilet even though i was tired upon reaching home from school.
no school tomorrow but I've SC pledge practice to attend which is at 4pm.

i miss Raif Zaidan and Syafiq Amri.
& not forgetting i am looking forward to welcome another 2 member of Karim's family,
Rifah Zafirah and Syazli Adam.
2 more months to go, cousin Zahirah and cousin Yatie.

i came across quite an interesting place to star-gaze,
Pulau Semakau.
i wanna go lah, anyone in?

2009-08-10T15:06:00.000-07:00

i been writing and keeping drafts on my blog.
i was at the lowest point of life.

My Sunday was well-spent. ;)
girlfriends, bus ride, far east, late lunch, nana thai, SAM, raffles, market place, fireworks, clark quay, double cheeseburger, train ride.

in three words, I can sum up everything I've learned about life,
it goes on.
-Robert frost.

it goes on,
but i never move on.;(

2009-08-06T22:00:00.000-07:00

it was a last minute plan.
i was so lethargic but since it been donkey years ago since i stepped into East View,
i agreed to Aisah plan.
i had so much fun hanging around at F&N staff room.
who don't cos i grew up in there.
i still remember how i cried due to the lost of interest in doing my O'level coursework
when i lost all the data that was inside the thumb drive 1 month before submission.
how pathetic can that be.
end up, i got E8. basket!

i miss my ' kau boleh bebual kalau kulit ku tebal girls.'
now, i need my Sunday.

2009-08-05T23:34:00.000-07:00

i think i should be grateful having a friend like Is.
especially when i was so busy with school stuff and all.
he will remind me not to forget doing my obligation as a Muslim.
like what F did 3yrs ago.
see, i told you.
this isn't an easy task.
to move on.... it might take years or even forever.

F, you once stole my heart and broke it :(
sometimes, i wish 13 March 2006 never happened.

2009-08-01T00:15:00.000-07:00

due to yesterday,
i fell ill today.
flu plus a bad sore throat.
my whole body is aching since yesterday.

it been a long time since i chatted with Is.
but we did offline chatting. :)

i think now i know the reason why you went away F. :(

2009-07-31T23:57:00.000-07:00

Futsal Tournament at Kallang Cage.
i had so much fun today.
i brought home the first victory ever since i joined ITE.
W.R SC did absolutely awesome.
Alhamdullilah we won champion.
so guys, don't think girls can't play futsal okay.
the rest of the team did very well too.
i think the critical moment was the during the penalty shoot out.
even though, i played center mid during the match,
i volunteered myself to become the goalkeeper for the penalty shoot out.
i don't know why i did that but i think its the best to show my appreciation to the rest of the girls for being a great companions for today.
i think i did my very best even though i brought home some other gifts,
a sprained ankle and long+short scars on my leg due to falling.

i was "burger-ed" after the last penalty shoot out because i managed to save the opponent ball.
i received a kisses and hugs from the girls.
lol. this girls never fail to make me laugh.
not forgetting, thanks to my favorite boys.
thanks for the cheering and jeering.
thanks Aziz for lending me his boots cos my shoe fly off on the very first match and also,
that torn keeper gloves.
i own you a treat dude.

a special thanks to Doda for giving me the chance to be part of the team.
last but not least,
Aisah, Atiqah, FarahD, Sara, Suliana and Raudhah
i love you all!

after match,
me,doda and aisah headed to Marina square for a chilling session at Macd.
after 2-3hrs,
we headed to Esplanade to continue our stories.
hahaha.
my mouth is aching due to so much laughter.
we went separate ways around 6.30pm
and most funniest moment,
the three of us were limping all the way.
lols.

at last, i met Ayn after long time of MIA.

now, i am missing my girls.
sorry, i never joined you guys just now.;(
gue rindu sama loe semue. :(

what team,
what team,
what team,
SC!

2009-07-29T22:16:00.000-07:00

i had someone leaning on my shoulder taking a nap on my way to school today.
but this time round, a cute looking Chinese guy.
lols. *kening naik-naik*
but he's much more polite because he said sorry.

pledge practice was at 4pm to 6pm
i didn't skipped IKP. :)
had a 18 questions test on IKP.

its my payday but i got a cheque instead.
i got to collect it tomorrow.

i got to work tomorrow, Friday and Saturday.
7pm to 12am
and lastly futsal on Friday at Cage.

ps: if you hang on to your old memories, you'll never be able to create new ones.

2009-07-28T20:03:00.000-07:00

i been sleeping only 4-3hrs a day for the past few days.
due to that, i am not being myself lately.
grandma is in a very bad condition.
or should i say, she's at a verge of death?
no, seriously. i am not kidding.
she's really really suffering now.
i tried to hold back my tears, but i just can't.
dad, mum and myself have been going aunt house over past few days to keep her company.
and we'll only be back home around 2.30am to 3.30am.
and school starts at 7.30am almost everyday.
i was late for school today.
i overslept. i woke up at 6.30am. normally i would be already on my way to school.
now, i got even bigger ring eye bag under my eyes.

i am going to have a nice sleep tonight as i need to report to school at 1pm tomorrow.
and also, it seems like i got to absent myself from IKP class because i will be having SC pledge taking practice. ;(

Hawa just gave me a call telling that F was right in front of her eating KFC.
if only i have known earlier, i don't mind going to Dover just for the sake of bumping into F.
owh, i do miss F. ;(

2009-07-26T23:29:00.000-07:00

nothing can describe how beautiful the event was.
hadrah by syabab never fail to impress me with their melodic voices and awesome percussionist
and thus its a sing along session for the rest of syababs.
it brought me to tears because i felt calm and at the same time,
i realized how important Rasulullah S.A.W in every human being life.
MASYALLAH
and thus,
this is the most memorable event of the year which i hope i will able to attend it until the day of Qiyamah.
Insyallah.Amin.

2009-07-24T11:43:00.000-07:00

life is wonderful
like those cute little babies.
still, i hate my timetable.

and also, life is full of hypocrite. agree?

i need Sunday. ;)

2009-07-21T23:01:00.000-07:00

school starts at 7.30am
ends at 9.30am
tell you, 2hrs in school might as well i continue my beauty sleep
but i can't afford to receive any more warning letter.
mind you, warning letter for not attending school for just a day.
and also, i don't wish to be welcomed back home with dad standing in front of my house gate folding his arm with his angry face.
obviously, a copy of warning letter was post to him.

i was in a head banging position from Outram to Simei.
i fell asleep and at one point of time my head accidentally hit the glass window
and you can basically heard a loud bang.
but i did opened my eyes not like diyana the other time.
lol.

dj, kiter boleh lawan sape yer bunyi terhantuk lagi kuat.
lol.

i think i been making fun of myself since yesterday.
i wore a bright green sock with my blue school shoe.
when basically this 2 china man kept staring at my legs and laughing
i shouted inside the train,
"stoking je pe"
i think the color contrast makes it looks funny.

and also to dj,
kiter boleh lawan sape yer pekik lagi kuat pat public places.
lol.

school till saturday.
i need to come back this saturday for school.
i was chosen by Mr Leong to help out for the Tobasco competition.
lemah sia.

2009-07-21T00:19:00.000-07:00

currently in a deep dilemma
two important events falls on the same day.
26th July, 2009
I've made up my mind.
i felt so bad to turn down one of the event.
truly sorry.

i don't know why.
i felt so grateful having to know I.
sometimes, i felt you're way to good to become my friend.
i just hope it won't turn out like the way it is 3yrs ago.
see, now it reminds me of F.

f, if only i wish I was you.

2009-07-19T23:00:00.000-07:00

i was out since morning.
went to sister Shaikhah wedding at Woodlands.
got into the slowest bus ride ever. thanks to bus 168.
awesome performance by Ahmad,Is,Aisyah and Hussain. *claps*
train to Bugis for our liqa' session.
heavy eyelid but thanks to whoever who can't stop making me laugh.
i almost cried.seriously.
*lifting eyebrow*
he's around ;)

bought white shawl for next week maulid.
i am super excited.
btw, happy israk mikraj.

thanks to Aisyah dad for sending us home.
syukran.

k, flood my inbox.
talking craps on my facebook.
kompang kau kang!

this hard-headed I still don't want to see the doctor.
dekni pun mintak kene kompang.
k, pinjam kompang kau.
lol.

school tomorrow.
i am gonna hate this week timetable.
pledge taking practice tomorrow?
still on or not?
i don't know.

2009-07-18T02:23:00.000-07:00

i saw F look-alike just now.
how excited i can be.
sorry mia.
K said hi to me. *wide smile*

meet the girls as promised as they're craving for bbq chicken from east coast lagoon.
awesome time with the girls.
from the nenek keropok, to the tasting of salt water.
blame those strong waves.
home sweet home at 9pm.

chatted with I just now i think he has been a very great companion for the past few months.
thank-you and get well soon dude. :)

2009-07-15T01:03:00.000-07:00

i am super glad that school starts at 1pm tomorrow.
i love this week timetable.
thanks for the alternate swapping of timetable and i got no school on Friday.
we did mi-sen place for group 1 for tomorrow cooking session for the training kitchen.
school ends early but Mr Leong held me up because he practically asked me to cook for him
Jemput-jemput pisang.
and i end up alone in the kitchen frying jemput-jemput.
a total modification of jemput-jemput pisang.
cinnamon powder and parmesan cheese.
and of course, it turn out great.
the not so great part is, some oil splattered on my eyes
and there's red dots on my lower part of eyes now.
jemput-jemput pisang punye pasal. lol.

i slacked for awhile with dj plus aisah & friends while waiting for mia to end school.
met mia at cityhall platform.
there's supposed to be a meet up session with my girls today but sorry lovely girls,
i got to back out last minute due to my major stomach cramps.
we made it up soon alright?
meeting the girls tomorrow and i hope IKP ends before 3pm.
because my girls end school at 3pm.

red light=stomach cramps.
4 tablet of panadol, axe oil, lots of sky juice and still in pain.

i just update my calendar and it's freaking me out.
i am practically scared because i don't know if i am able to commit to those days.
like seriously, i can't afford NOT to work.
i been going financially independent for the past years and i don't wish to give financial problems to my both parents.
you see, i been not asking for daily allowance since last 3yrs and hell yeah, i was so ashamed that dad gave it to me just now but still i can't afford to get hold on that $10
and end up, i lied to dad saying i got my own pocket money.
sorry dad but i have to.
i am willing to sacrifice as long i won't cause much trouble to my both parents.
sorry mum and dad.
i love you so much <3>

i abhor irresponsible people.
i am not pointing finger or anything.
but as a human being you have to be responsible on anything that you hold on.
especially handling with people personal belongings.
you borrow it, you jolly well return it straight to the owner.
not passing around telling people to do it for you.
ending up, you lost it and thus putting on blame on others.

mia told me that she received a surprise birthday wish from someone out of sudden.
i wish i could be in her place ;)
i been waiting and wanting that someone to do that since the last 3yrs.
but its not happening just yet.
maybe next year?
how about listing it down on my wishlist.lol

2009-07-14T01:00:00.000-07:00

its already morning and i still have yet to be asleep.
or should i say, i just woke up?
unfortunately, i accidentally fell asleep just now.
PE was awesome.
played street soccer and hell yeah, the guys were funny bunch of people.
but still, i miss 502s PE lessons.
my precious face almost got hit from a fast flying ball kicked by Leslie but i managed to catch it right in time.
coach and miss chin should be proud of me.
i used my hockey skills in soccer okay! lol.
ikp was at 12pm, school ended around 1.30pm.
i was so tired that i don't talked much plus, classmates have been pain in the ass.
there's a limit to my patience i must say.
but thank god, i managed to control it. *claps*

khai: krg nak keje earn $70/hr?
kiter semue: baik pe! nak ah. keje aper?
khai: kire pasir pat east coast beach.
damn, this guy right here with his lamest joke
moral of the story: don't be money minded.lol

he then went on and on
khai: earn $100/hr?
all of us: what job?
khai: polished track mrt yang karat sampai berkilat.
LOL.

i was brownsing through my old school diary just now,
and there's a lot of sweet memories written in there
especially my 2006 diary.
its all about F
seriously.........i cant afford to let it go ;(

i miss my girls;(

2009-07-12T22:36:00.000-07:00

ohaiyo gozaimas.
yesterday i was working the whole evening + night.
Weili and i was super frustrated because we received a very large order at 11.40pm
as you know, our last order is at 10.30pm
inconsiderate people.
end work like 12.45am.
home sweet home around 1.30am
took a bath and the hole in my washroom got chocked.
plumbing work again.
i was so tired and i got no other choice but to fix it.
anddddd i dream of F last night. ;)

today,
i went religious class as per normal.
but this time it was held at Arab Street.
after class ended,
went to pray Asar prayer at Sultan Mosque before headed to Tong Seng for dinner with the rest.
unfortunately, Tong Seng was closed.
how sad can i be.
i have been craving for their chicken rice for the past few months.
so, we headed to Raffles Banquet instead.
around 8pm, headed back to Sultan Mosque for Mahgrib prayers.
and home sweet home at 9.30pm

wah, i very sian ley.
tomorrow first period SW.
i was super glad when i received sms from bob saying that we're to report to school at 12pm tomorrow but in less than 10mins,
i received sms from Mr Leong saying SW will be as per normal.
this mean i need to wake up early again although its at 9am.
still early lah. *sigh*

i got big ring of eyebag on my eyes.
i need go to sleep now.

2009-07-10T00:27:00.000-07:00

ohaiyo gozaimas.
i just came back awhile ago.
i wasn't allowed to stay for closing cos only god knows why.
i was an earlybird today.
i was out from house at 5.30am, took a stroll to Simei MRT.
a bottle of green tea,
my creative mp3,
was my companion.
reached school around 7am
took own sweet time to get ready for sawing of lambrack.
totally a cock up session for me.
Mr Leong will buy me a new lamb rack for me to saw it correctly.
school ended around 10am.
make my way to cityvibe with the guys for a lepak session.
lepak till i received a phone call from someone asking me to go school immediately.
i left the guys, took 105 back to school.
gossip session with no other than my 6yrs girlfriend, Aisah.
around 2.30pm went for SC chapter meeting.
ended around 4.30+pm.
and off to work after that.
hell yeah, its indeed a very long day for me today.
my whole body was aching.
i need a massage.
mum, can you help me?

now, I is asking me to wait for him till he went online.
too bad, i just received a call from my bed.

2009-07-09T19:46:00.000-07:00

i skipped school today.
i was down with fever. ;(
feeling better now after taking some antibiotic.

sawing of lamb rack tomorrow.
i am........*shivering*

working evening shift tomorrow till closing. ;)

2009-07-08T01:00:00.000-07:00

life have been......
nothing can describe how i feel.
juggling with sch+work wasn't easy afterall.
my whole body is aching like no one business.
from head to toe. ;(

Monday(6 July)
school starts at 9am,
missed Clementi stop, end up at Jurong.lol
went through some procedures on H1N1.
Mr Leong made us watch Ramen Girl movie for 3hrs.
school ended around 12.30pm
i made my way to Arab street after that to buy something.
took bus 12 home.
i almost fell asleep while waiting for Hawa to give me a call.
around 5, i went out again.
i tell you, Braden is the MAT OF PAITAU.
last minute cancellation ah boy? nice one.
as we both wanted to watch Transformers for the past weeks but we're not able to make it,
we decided to watch the 7pm show.
show ended around 9.30pm.
seriously, i don't mind spent another $7.50 again.
and not forgetting, i saw F on my way to meet Hawa.
see, i always saw him whenever i am inside the bus.
;(

Tuesday(7 July)
report to school 7.30am again.
i hate waking up at 4.30am when people are still snoring.
school ends at 9+am.
1hr30mins in sch and we're done.
see, i always hated my timetable.
train-ed home
once again, i miss Simei stop.
end up in Pasir Ris.
home sweet home around 11+am,
took a bath and went to bed.
woke up at 4pm for my breakfast + lunch + dinner before heading to work
home sweet home at 11.45pm
and i took almost 1hr to pack my sch bag
but still end up, i forget to bring most of the important thing to sch today.

Wednesday(8 July)
supposed to report to school at 8am
i woke up at 6.30am!!!!!!
normally, i would be out already.
this one confirm late for school already.
kena lock outside training kitchen,
never bring my chef hat,
Mr Leong gave me those cotton hat which doctor&nurses wear it inside operation theater.
lastly, i need to do area cleaning. LOL.
thank god,
bob,nickolas,fabian was late too.
i forgot to bring my knife. luckily we only used filleting knife.
i forgot to bring $16 for SJCC t-shirt.
i was in a very bad mood.

my temper now days is getting bad to worse
i raised my voice for no reason.
maybe, i should give myself a tight slap.

right after school, Hawa gave me a missed call.
see, i told you Hawa is a lucky queen this days.
he saw F in school, talked to him,
some more what dear Hawa?
okay, you better shut up.

i need to report to school at 7.30am today and i still yet to be asleep.
FTT at 3.15pm and i have yet to open up the book.
baik pe girl. *braden style*
lol. i miss that boy. ;)

2009-07-05T00:40:00.000-07:00

7 more hours to,
Simei MRT Station,
Clementi MRT Station,
Bus 105,
and finally ITE Clementi.

a fresh start of the new term. :)

i was forced to go to my distance cousin's wedding.
and due to that, i miss my religious class.
and also_____________:)
hawa was lucky enough.right hawa?
got to talk to ______ somemore.
action sia you.

i was introduced to some of dad's cousins.
as you know, i hate going to weddings especially when it comes to dad's side
"said, anak kau umur brape? *pointing finger to me*, boleh lah dgn anak aku."
muke satu-satu mcm muke sardin.
lol.

i went off early with brother because my whole body was aching and my foot was hurting.
i was too tired, i think.
yesterday i did closing and we did spring cleaning+washing to the kitchen.
i reached home around 1am and i only got to bring myself to sleep at 5am.
i got difficulty sleeping when i am tooooooooo tired.
and before that, i was on the phone with nysa :)
woke up at 9am and off to the wedding.

home sweet home at 7pm.
took a bath and i fell asleep while watching "while you were out" at travel living channel.
i accidentally woke up because i am in need of toilet.
tried to play a quite number of game of solitaire but it failed to bring me to sleep.
see, i took almost an hour to post this.
and i am left with 6hrs to school.
lol

2009-07-02T00:36:00.000-07:00

work have been great.
just a little bit tired.
i got blisters on some of my fingers.
just because on the first day of work from 5pm-11pm,
i did mi-sen place.
hold knife too long and much force needed to cut carrotssssssss.
lots of carrotsssss.
i hate cutting carrotsssss.
but so far, everything went on smoothly.
i am still undergoing some basic kitchen training.

yesterday was supposed to be my rest day.
but my family insisted that we went across causeway.
and it was already 7pm.
we headed to Pasar Borong Pandan.
had our dinner there and we just look around there.
but at least, i got my all time favorite keropok lekor.
home sweet home around 12am+.

last two days,
i had a bad dream.
i told mum about what i dream.
i lost my tooth.

mum told me its a bad luck and basically, it will usually happened within our family/close relatives.
because last few years, mum had the same dream.
and on the next day, mum's bro-in-law passed away

and dad received a call from sister just now,
her car window was badly smashed near her workplace.
she lost all the valuables,
from cash cards and some amount of money.
i was totally speechless.
brother is now on his way meeting sister at Woodlands.
i just hope sister is alright.
thank god,
its nothing serious better than losing someone whom you loves so much.

2009-06-29T23:05:00.000-07:00

saya hari ini macam minta simpati orang.
yang saya tahu,
saya benci diri saya pada hari ini. :(

2009-06-28T23:33:00.000-07:00

i went for my religious class today w/o Hawa.
i miss her.
i got stuck in a massive jam at Kallang for 30mins
and my head was already spinning like a roller coaster.
i was at the upper deck and i almost vomited.

he wasn't around :(

home sweet home around 8
and dad told me cousins from Johor gonna come over.
i miss Adam the most.

cousins bought some durians,rambutan and mangosteen.
lol.
we lay down some newspapers on the floor and eat together.
now, i smell like a durian.
i haven't brush my teeth.
i think i should do it now before i realized there's flying ants inside my mouth.

i don't know why i felt this way.
but i felt left out.
sorry, i am being sensitive here. :(

2009-06-27T00:16:00.000-07:00

today basically,

- woke up late but managed to catch 10.15am train.
- i dropped my hp on the escalator.
-one stranger mistaken me for someone else.
- learned Japanese language.
-lunch at Puncak at Far East with newly made friend, Shu Mei
-i got posted to Waraku De Pasta at T2
-i am starting work this Tuesday
-i fell asleep inside the train and miss Simei stop.
-end up at Pasir Ris :)
-home sweet home at 5.30pm
-fell asleep again.

i must be that tired after doing those tongue twister. lol.

religious class tomorrow.
i just realized i been stalking______________
hope to see you tomorrow, _________:)

lovesss, how about our date on Monday?

2009-06-26T23:08:00.000-07:00

i need to head down to Shaw House tomorrow morning still I've yet to be asleep.
i miss Tong Seng Chicken Rice at Bugis.
i currently missing my girls.

i am in need of school.
i am in need of money.
i am in need of someone called......

i need to start work asap to make myself busy once again.

2009-06-25T21:19:00.000-07:00

hello people :)

i went over cousin's boutique just now to do my long dress.
went to shop for some groceries at Geylang with mum.
we left dad at home as he was busy with some gardening.
now, i felt lethargic due to the walking distance plus the hot sunny day.

today random topic with mum,
relationship and marriage.
i don't know what's wrong with mum today.
i think she's excited about getting a daughter in law soon.

and she even said,
' ibu ingat nanti ipah yang kahwin dulu sebelum kakak'.
lol.

2009-06-25T02:55:00.000-07:00

it seems like i am not moving.
why is it so difficult?

I've tried every way.
faan, it been 3yrs.
and its coming to the forth year.
how could i possibly let it go.
just like that

i think this is my worse nightmare ever.
faan, i am still searching for the reason.

2009-06-24T19:00:00.000-07:00

i sent my resignation letter yesterday.
and today i was terminated.
wth?
lol. who cares.

i did spring/winter/summer cleaning to my room.
i found this while i was cleaning my habol box.

yeah, its water babies.
i been keeping it in a box since last year.
i still remember how "kiasu" me and my other classmates during that time.
we bought a packet of water baby, put it inside water bottle, add in water & they became water BABIES.
lol.

2009-06-23T18:07:00.000-07:00

i woke up late this morning.
but i managed to catch the 12.15pm train.
reached school around 1.15pm.
headed to SC room, fill up the particular form
and made my way to the interview room.
the moment i went in, all eyes were on me.
sape tak stress sia, a total of 16 eyes were on me.
i sat in the middle of the room.
tick,tock,tick,tock.
i completed the interview.
thus, its not easy afterall.
berserah je lah kan.
i don't know if my words were too harsh or whatsoever.:)
but i did try my best
and i thought, i was the only one
but nick was there too. :)

after which,i went for a job interview at Shaw Towers at Orchard.
i went there alone :(
i look so funny walking in Orchard Street alone.
*kesian*

now i am excited.
i got the job as a kitchen staff at Waraku Japanese Restaurant.
training this Saturday from 11am to 4pm.
resignation letter for my current job have been sent through email.

lebih cantik, i may be posted to Terminal 2 at Changi Airport.
just a 15mins journey.:)

no more picking up calls, no more auto in, no more begging for 15mins break, no more long walk and lastly, bye very very attitude/demanding customers
no more" i want mc spicy but less spicy" customers.
lol.
dorang ingat kiter uli ayam and tepung dier on the spot ke.
boleh letak sikit or byk cili powder.
lol.
for god sake, its all instant stuff.
letak dlm minyak, abeh goreng.
funny customers.

2009-06-22T23:25:00.000-07:00

sky juice and cough syrup was my companion today.
12 more hours to go,
Student Councillor Interview.
i just hope i don't pee inside my pants :)
wish me luck people.

my working roster is in a big mess now.
ASDFTGJERG!
soon, resignation letter will be submitted. :)

2009-06-22T01:57:00.000-07:00

i want to marry a millionaire/billionaire now,
and migrate to Paris.
Can?

i been dreaming of Paris since few days ago :(

2009-06-22T00:05:00.000-07:00

i think i am super irritating today.
:(
and people keep ignoring me.
especially...........

kesian sia aku hari ni :(

2009-06-21T23:42:00.000-07:00

20th June 2009,
Singapore Botanical Garden,
Lovely Girlfriends,
SIMPLY AWESOME!

21st June 2009,
Religious class at Peace Centre,
that guy with two little dimple on his cheek :),
& dinner at As-Salam.
just another normal day.

Ubin trip is up next.
cycling and durian feast. :)

2009-06-19T23:30:00.000-07:00

as far as i am concern,
i miss school or should i say,
i need school.

i am not prepare for the SC Interview.
even though some of them might say, i just laugh throughout the interview. right Indra? lol.
i think i can't afford to do like what Indra did.

i think my bad-temper is showing up again.
i need to control it or at most i shall start crying again.

Singapore Botanical Garden,
14 more hours to go,

in 10 years time,

i will want to make my way there.
maybe alone or maybe, with my other half.

2009-06-19T01:59:00.000-07:00

i am moving on.
no turn back.
studies, career, future are the main priority.

Goodbye F. :(

2009-06-18T14:30:00.000-07:00

17th June 2009,
Awesome day with lovely people.
for sure, we had great fun.
from Mount Faber, Henderson Waves, Vivocity to One Fullerton.

Singapore Botanical Garden this Saturday
with my other 7 girls.
2 more days.

2009-06-16T16:21:00.000-07:00

i went over to my cousin house yesterday.
chilling session.
and in the afternoon,
i met hawa up as i need to look for shoe.
i don't why but i was too fickle minded yesterday.
i was so choosy where we should have our dinner.
we went back and fro.
had dinner at burger king,slack for a little while.
facebook-ing, chatting, hotmail-ing.
home sweet home around 9+.

i thought of having early sleep but,
shah called me up.
not that shah, its another shah.
its alam shah.
talked to him till 3+am.
and solitare failed to bring me to sleep
i decided to open up my FTT book to do some revision.
a lot of things that i need to study but too little time.
i'm left with 3weeks before the real test.

SC interview next Tuesday.
another homework. :)

tomorrow having class reunion.
Southern Ridge, Henderson Waves.

dearest 502s, meet you guys tomorrow at 10am at Tampines MRT Station.
braden, for god sake don't paitau ah! lol

2009-06-15T00:53:00.000-07:00

went over to maklong's crib just now after maghrib.
my another beloved cousin got engaged.
congrats kak dilah.
after that, as per normal.
slacked with other cousins.
from the young ones, to the oldies.
older brother and fiancee were discussing about their wedding next year with the wedding planner no other that my beloved oldest cousin, kak yati.
best per kahwin. lol
and kak dilah will get married in December while bro wedding will be in February next year.
kak yati and kak zerah are pregnant with their 2nd child.
they're both sisters and they have the same due date.
got pregnant at the same day. double happiness.
i will get another niece and nephew.

Shah msged me just now,
shah: i walked passed your block just now and i realized i miss you so much
me: lol. then you want me to do what?

people, i am not being mean okay but some people just don't deserve any respect.
guys will always be guys.
sweet talking runs through in their blood.
siapa makan cili, dia terasa pedas.
if only shah reads my blog.
lol.

my only wish now is to________________

2009-06-14T14:41:00.000-07:00

as per normal,
i went for my religious class on Saturday
ended around 6.30pm
accompany Hawa for her facial appointment.
waited for another 1hr.
had our dinner at Eighteen Chefs
and home sweet home at 11pm.

we had a talk about how we misses our hockey and floorball training.
and at the same time she reminded me,
how we stole that blue water bottle in the PE store.
lol.
we're bunch of robbers you see.
we even stole hand towels. lol

the girls were out to Mustafa Centre.
i am not able to tag along cos mum is nagging non-stop due to my late come back yesterday night.

i think i need to start opening my notes and that thick textbook & start doing revision.
;)

i just sent my resume to some F&B companies.
i hope to hear positive answer from them soon.

2009-06-13T02:15:00.000-07:00

i was browsing through some old photo and i found some that brings up some memories.
NCC especially.
those tearful training that basically made us cry non-stop.
those times where we did push-up facing the toilet bowl.
camps especially.
my first ever vacation out from Singapore with my 6 girls.
Mount Ophir. mind that kental face. just wake up from sleep lah.
and thats, F.
that was taken when i was in sec 3.
we knew each other from there.
okay, shut up sahrifah.
and it was 13 March 2006
its a 7days trip mind you. i miss my bed :)

13 March 2008,
NCC organised an UG Camp.
this time round it was Gopeng, Perak.
its a 5 days trip.
this time, there's no f
but i got my another f with me which is Mr Farizal. lol

i enjoyed my secondary school life and i wish it will never end.
too bad, time is moving.
if only there's time machine.

damn, i miss hockey and floorball!
i treasured the farewell ceremony in which the younger ones says goodbye to the older ones like us.
i still remember doing split in the field because of the muddy rain.
we played rugby with the guys,
took a lot of stupid shots and have 20+boxes of pizza all by ourself

i still remembered how i was being sabo-ed to be the captain of the team and forget our cheer in front lots of people
the most embarrassing moment ever.
not once okay. imagine. i was the clown of the team.

and not forgetting being hit by a hockey ball right at my knee by my coach few minutes before our tournament.
and poor me, there's no substitute.
hahaha.

i felt like crying now.
those were the times where i learned to manage my time.
juggling with studies,working and CCA.
i think that was one of the factor i was sacked from student councillor.
lol.
i just hope history won't repeat itself.

miss santha, i won't forget the way you sacked me.
for god sake, i was sacked in front of the general office while sitting.
*innocent face*.pity me.

2009-06-12T23:15:00.000-07:00

some people just love to make me feel guilty.
damn lah.
i told you didn't i?
just let it be. let bygones be bygones.
why is it so difficult?
shah, you're old enough to think.
its better to remain this way. friends. just friends.

if last time F was there with me to lend me his ears,
now_____________.
aku sedih lah :(
ni semue pasal kau lah shah.

2009-06-12T18:48:00.000-07:00

i did 4 jobs today.
a plumber, a toilet cleaner, a cobbler and fan repairman/cleaner.
lol.
mum talked about responsibilities to me this morning or should i say afternoon as i woke up at noon.
i am so touched.
if only my other siblings could feel her.
i cleaned mum's little fan as she complaint that the fan is full of dust.
end up, she brought all the fans, including my fan,the living's room, bro's fan and last but not least the spoil fan in front of the toilet.
lol.
and after that, she complaint that the sink was chocked since last two days and no one has attended to it.
so, i became a plumber. and yeah, now the problem was solved.
thennnnnnn. she then complaint about the dirty toilet.
she asked me to scrub the whole toilet including the tile and ceiling.
thank god, bleach helped me. lol.
then, she complaint about the unrepairable fan.
btw, its UNREPAIRABLE.
meaning, cannot be repair anymore.
she said maybe i can give it another try
she handed me a lubricating oil(it sound so wrong here) and a pair of screwdriver.
when i told her to hand me some tissue paper,
she complaint that " tangan ibu dah penuh"
see, how bad can she be. i still love her though
the fan is now moving but its moving at a -1 speed.
you get what i mean?
conclusion, its still unrepairable.
aannndddd then(this is the last one fyi),
she complaint to me about her torn scroll sandals.
so, i glued her torn sandal.
end up she asked me to glue up all the slipper that were basically torn including mine.
kes, tapak dah tak serupe tapak punyer.
aku layankan je, nak sedapkan hati dier punyer pasal. lol

and few hours ago as i was scrubing my foot,
she handed me her foot too.
she said " ibu yer kaki pun kasar, anukan."
lol
see, how cute can my mum be.
i still remember meeting my friends late the other time.
dad asked me to polish his nail. lol.

as a reward, she cooked ayam masak merah and even feed me.
thanks ibu.

and dad being so sarcastic,
wah! rajin anak ayah ni.
nah, amek $10 taruk pat dlm tabung ayah yg pat atas meja tu.
i though he wants to hand me that $10. :(

but he bought me a banana and a papaya instead.
he said " pisang and betik bagus, bagus kalau kau nak berak-berak".
lol.

and dad feed me and mum with the chilled papaya while i was scrubing mum's foot.
dad said to mum " wah! macam datin"
lol

and as dessert, i had neopolitan ice cream with some longans :)

indeed, this is the best Friday i ever had.
i love you mum and dad.
muacks!

2009-06-12T02:30:00.000-07:00

its 2.30am.
currently on the phone with shah.
i lied to him.
bohong sunat .
i got no other choice.

even though there's no f, no shah or what so ever,
i felt contented. =)

i am looking forward to student councillor interview.
but still, i just hope some of my mates will receive the sms too.
pity me, i am alone :(

i miss my girls :)
Sunday how?