i dont know if im able to do all this. 5 more months to go. and trust me,at this moment of time, i feel that everything has come to the end. my results went downhill. next two weeks im going to sit for my O'level malay paper. and yeah,im prepare for it but.... im lack of confident. getting a B3 for malay was so dissappointing. i dont know whats wrong with me. at the same time, i dissappoint my family and my teachers. i know i have this preception of let bygones be bygones. but when am i able to change all this. i keep failing in life. i keep doing the same mistakes. when should i improve all this. dad spent so much money on me. especially,for my O'level fee. dont tell me after all the sacrifices made by dad i repay him by ending up in ITE at the end of the day? i dont wanna dissappoint dad and mum. i love them. its hard for dad to bring me up. its time to sacrifice and repay for all the good deeds dad has made for me. i love you dad.