Friday, December 22, 2006
todae,CCA Fair was a blast!we did our best!im just so bloody fucked up after CCA Fair ended.omg!i felt like crying!yeah!im just too weak n tired.n yet i have to clear up all the mess in NCC store.i cant take it anymore.BEING A S4 WAS A TORTURED TO ME!n i more worst im the only S4.izyan is a S4 too but yet she hasnt been to ncc from the ferst time when we got our new posting.at ferst i enjoyed myself from being a S4,but den after few training i felt that my effort was not being appreciated.im someone who is particular about my surrounding.i hate mess!i hate dust!im so particular about hygiene.susah sangat ker permintaan aku??i just want u guys to have a nice moment at ncc store.but den,omg!no use cleaning up the store.all will change into a mess once again.mcm maner aku kemas store,how clean it is,it will still BECOME A MESS AGAIN & AGAIN.im tired of it okay!aku sorang pun leh uat keje tau.just that susah sgt ker krg nak understand aku???it is too difficult???haishh.biler aku suruh,angkat any unused things on the floor,krg ckp nanti.but nanti end up,it still there.wth!ckp skali taknk dgr.nanti kalau org marah,satu2 uat muker.sial lah.perangai pathetic sak.aku tak pernah mengira ngan krg.skarang krg nak mengira.kiwak!sial arh perangai!dulu,S4 empat orang pun susah nak kemas store.harapkan aku,padahal aku S2 dulu.skarang biler aku ckp,tlg arh kemas store sikit2,aper kau ckp?aku S2 per.kau S4,patut kau yang buat.puki kau arh!kiwak!aku dah takleh angkat sak ngan perangai kau.tadik,aku tahu lah yg kau ngan yg laen2 prepare untuk booth ncc,abeh kau igt aku tak uat aper2?maner aku nak fikir bender2 aper nak taruk kat booth,maner aku nak polish boot utk display,maner aku nak paint black rifle,maner aku nak prepared rifles utk cadet2 nak dtg amek utk CCA FAIR.takkan tu pun kau nak mengira sgt.ukan kau srg uat keje,aku pun uat keje.takkan semer bender kau aspect aku uat,aku srg jer sak S4 tadik.sutina dah kat booth.all things have to be prepared.maner aku leh cope sorang2.aku ader due tgn jer.thats why i aspect u guys to cooperate with me just now.ukan yer aku arah2 krg,aku pun uat skali per.abeh nak buat keje kene orang bilang,use your iniative arh.abeh part nak kemas booth,semer cabot gi jumper cadet kat porch.dah bersurai baru dtg.aku paham arh,amira ngan aisah semer dah do their best.drg yg ulang alik dari booth to store to amek bender2 utk booth.n what u do?nothing!yg kau tahu,suruh amek bender kau kat store.pemalas sgt per nak gi store?haish.perangai sial sak!yg part aku aru naek store dlm kul 5+ gitu,bender2 semer byk kat luar store,n kau senang2 tukar baju.eh,pakai otak arh,ckp teamwork,buat arh samer2.ni aku cumer nmpk 3 orang buat keje.tu pun,tiga-tiga susun rifles.susah sgt ker nak susun rifles?abeh yg laen duduk.kiwak!heart pain lah sia aku tengok.yg budak lelaki dah mmg tak boleh harap.satu-satu harapkan pangkat tinggi n muka hensem tapi perangai sial n PENGOTOR!sial lah.abeh,part yg aku masuk uat muker n separate bender2 ncc girls ngan ncc boys krg leh duduk tengok kan.kiwak!takder perasaan keper sak???aku tahu krg penat,aku pun penat.tapi sedap ker mata memandang keadaan store gitu.kau cumer tahu ckp,STORE BERSERAK GILER!tapi,ukan kau tlg kemas,kau tengok n duduk lagik ader.haishh.im realli tired becoming S4.it was a torture for me.mcm membunuh aku.just imagine,if ur are the only S4 n keadaan store mcm tadik?will you be angry?of course rite?same goes to me.im angry too.fed up sia!ikotkan hati tadik,aku tak kemas sak.aku biar gitu.takyah alih kat ncc boys.u guys suker per duduk kat store in that surrounding.dengan stokin2 busuk,baju2 busuk,boot2 busuk.suker kan?so go ahead.i will only clean up the store depends on my mood.takder mood,biar arh store kotor gitu,biar lipas2 semut2 semer dtg.krg suker kan?senang kater,kiter yer teamwork hancur arh.haprak giler!nak uat keje sikit pun nak mengira.if u guys wanna blame me,its up to you guys.coz im just letting out what i feel about being an S4 ALONE.but i hope u guys realise it.
Sahrifah