Sunday, December 03, 2006
in few hours time,im off to Changi Airport.grrrr,gonna sent bro off to Japan;Tokyo.more worse is that abg gonna check in at 3amn dad said that he wanna wait till abg check in.ey,im having ncc tomorrow.dont expect me to wait till 3am.omg!im gonna be so weak tomorrow if tis happen.no!no!im not gonna let dad wait for abg tat long.abg is old enough.he's 23.and tis is not the ferst time that he's away.he used to stay at Thailand for 1 month for his NS.so,what to worry about him.he just gonna be away for a week.u're supposed to be worry about ME.yesterdae,nyaris i ran out of home.all tis happen because of my sis fucking attitude.oh god!i hate sis so much.i dont regard her a my sis.i hate her fucking attitude.she sucks!you must be wondering right why i hate sis sedangkan i have a happy-go-lucky family?oh hell,basically i cant get along well with sis.she's damn EGO!i hate that.egoistic fills her life.although sometimes we get along well,that was just an act.i dont wanna dissappoint mum & dad coz i knew that both of them love sis so much.i would fight back with sis if she been rude to me.how can i respect her,sedangkan she never ever respect me as her younger sis.all blame usually would falls on me.even im not in wrong.isnt that unfair?yeah!its really unfair.MENTANG2 AKU YG PALING BONGSU,ASYIK AKU JER YANG KENE MENGALAH.dad loves to say that i was KEPALA BATU.say watever you want.i dont even care.the big quarrel between me & sis were yet to be solved.n i wont even care if it didnt get solved.its not my fault.its sis fault.she being damn rude to me.damn damn rude.i feel like killing her n sliced her into smaller parts n throw her meat at the sea so that fishes can eat her.grrr!damn fucked up with her.she's the one who was in wrong.so,let her be the one to say sorry to me.but,i bet that she wouldnt do tat.she has no feeling at all.she's like a human,who can breath without a heart pumping.oh god!berikanlah dier pengajaran yang secukup yer.i was damn dissappointed with her.i cant do anything.its up to her to change into someone better.i cant tell her to change if she herself dont have heart to change.all i hope now is that one day she gonna change.insyallah.i miss boyfriend<33i love boyfriend<33its true that i love boyfriend.im not lying.
Sahrifah