Saturday, December 09, 2006
fever attack me!oh damn it!i hate it so much.my body feel so weak.i have no been eating well for the pass few daes.all i eat was SUSHI.i eat only when im out of home.when im at home,i dont even touch any single food.dont asked me why.tiff between mum,dad n sis still going on.till when should i cope with it??im not sure.maybe till i truely show my true colours??yah,my TRUE COLOURS.no one know it accept myself.dont ever dare me.still thinking of trying to dare me??just forget it.i been locking myself in my room since last week.if im having NCC,im basically out in the morning n back in the evening.reach home,took a bath n lock myself in my room again.tats my daily routine.if im at home,i would just lock myself in my room.n if i cant tolerate those nonsence n nagging,i went out without them knowing where im heading.i will just be home at night n i start my routine again,lock myself in my room.aint my life boring??yeah,its bloody bored.if you were me,you will do that too.n if you were in my shoe right now,most probably,you will just run away from home.i tried before but i cant afford to leave coz i love my family.doesnt they knew it.i love them.im so dissappointed with them.totally dissappointed.totally.i feel like i dont exist in tis family.am i invisible???im tired of living.why not,u just kill me.i feel like commiting suicide.omg!will u be happy if im dead?maybe yes.coz im not worth of anything.im just a useless asshole.im speechless.
Sahrifah