Saturday, December 09, 2006
assalamualaikum.basically,im not coping well with my lyfe right now.my lyfe is getting bad to worse.omg!i cried everydae.to my frens out there,dont think im not having problems.problem surround me through out my day.everydae.im tired of it.my laughter,my smile were all fake.yah,its basically fake.because i dont wanna trouble you guys.because i knew that u guys urself had ur own problem.aku takkan tambah lagik masalah korang.im not having good terms with my mum,dad n sis.it been like tis since the last few weeks.i dont wanna elaborate more.yesterdae,had ncc in the morning.im tired k.tired of everything.im not in a mood for the past few daes.after ncc,off to have our lunch at KFC.went to have lunch with aman,amira,zarifah n myself.afetr eating,off to open plaza.lepak2 till 6+.something unexpected happem.oh damn!im so fucked up.its like,wth.u throw ur tantrum because of a game n u made a nuisance of urself infront of people.crazy asshole!reach home around 6.45.took a bath n at 7.30 went out again.off to bro girlfriend crib.go lepak2 at her crib.i cried alot at her house due to telling her my prob.oh damn!i cried alot.damn lots.it like!oh dear,i never ever cried tis bad.so,at 11.30 took 24 n off to changi airport.fetch abg.abg is back from Japan!yeah!but den,im not sure if i should tell abg what happen to me when abg was abroad.haish.todae,i rot at home.i didnt get a good sleep for the past few daes.due to i cant afford to close my eyes coz im too sad n i keep thinking about what gonna happen to me in future.to kak ina,thankz for ur advises.i will ignore what they do towards me in future.ipah akan try sabar k.but till when???im speechless. anyway,happy belated 17th birthdae Muhammad Farhan Jumiat.i got u a present but den im not sure when im supposed to give it to you.its just a small present but it means alot.to Mr Boyfriend,i realli miss you.i love you dearly.i need you<33maybe,i should just wait.till when??only god know it.
Sahrifah