Friday, November 10, 2006
second post of the dae.kinda bored so decided to update about my special fren.knew him in year 2005 in month March.such a great fren.sharing our problems n thoughts together was what both of us did everyday.yah,everyday.without miss.even a 5 mins conversation.both of us could get along well wif each other.basically,we went out to spent our time together.we went strolling around town.the dae that i would never forget.while we were walking,he grabbed my wrist.he told me that he love me since the first time we knew each other.i couldn't say anything.all i do was to stared through his eyes.i knew that he was sincere but den i just couldnt get over what happened to me before knowing him.basically,i just broken up wif my boyfriend.all i can do that time was to cry.i did nothing.basically,all i did was to lean my head on his shoulder.thats all i did.but den,i rejected him.i just couldn't afford to heartbroken again.he understood my feeling.he said to me no matter what happen he will be by my side n he will wait for me.at that time,im so greatful to have a fren like him.he's such a great fren.a very caring n concern fren.day by day,im starting to fall in love wif him.but i didnt confess it to him.till one day,i just cant take it anymore n i confess it my love.i just couldn't let tis feeling went off my mind.all i did,is thinking of him everyday.but den,when he asked me whether i would accept him as his special someone,i rejected him again.haishh.n he cried.after 9 months of waiting,on the 23th november 2005,he confess his love to me again n i accept him.i knew that he's sincere.so,our love journey have just started.had great time wif him.although there's quarrel between us,we manage to solve it.i just love him so much that i cant afford to lose him.his first kiss was an unforgetable one.i cried the moment he gave those kiss.bcoz maybe that was the first kiss that was given from someone who i loves most.he cried too.he said that,TAK SIA2 SAYA TUNGGU AWAK UNTUK 9 BULAN.SEKARANG BARU SAYA BOLEH RASA KASIH SAYANG AWAK.i was damn happy that moment.through out the day,we share our thoughts together n we rewind back the moment when we first knew each other.it was an unforgetable moment.but den,it didnt last long.all tis happen because of my negative thoughts about him.basically,im the one who stop tis relationship.all tis because he have not contacting me for past 1 week.i thought that he left me.so i decided to broke up wif him on the 23th April,2006.which it happen to be our 5 month anniversary.basically,before breaking up wif him,i knew someone else.i had crush on him.but den,i got to know that its just infatuation.basically,on the night of 23th April too,his brother called me.his bro said that his admitted to hospital coz he had an accident.i totally broke down knowing that news.more worse was that he LOST his MEMORY.i broke down even more.i just couldnt take it anymore.i regret so much.i regret that i left him in that condition.it been 1 week he was admitted to the hospital.omg!.so,after a week.he contacted wif me again.he remember nothing.nothing.even me.he cant remember anything.even his name.he couldnt remember ANY THING.i cried so much.he wanna me to be his girlfriend again after knowing the true stories about our relationship from his bro.but i couldnt help it.he wanna start afresh back wif me.he dont wanna to break his promises.whats the promises??HE WOULD NOT LEAVE ME ALONE N HE WILL LOVE ME FOREVER N EVER.all i can say was that my heart cant accept you anymore.i have found someone else which fills my heart.but den,i realised that im being unfair to him.but,i just couldnt do anything.i love someone else.i just cant love him because i pity him?thats not love.u have to love someone with ur whole heart.there must not be any parting.example,half ur heart belongs to guy A n another half belongs to guy B.thats must not happen.till now,he still in contact wif me.he still hoping.all i can say to him is that,DONT PUT SO MUCH HOPE ON ME.OR YOU WILL SUFFER.some of my friends said that"MAYBE HE'S UR MR RIGHT N MAYBE THAT BOTH OF YOU WERE MEANT FOR EACH OTHER".maybe?i dont know.all i can say,i love that someone.yah,that someone which i been talking about all tis daes.
Sahrifah